the slide...

Ubud 22nd March

I feel like a five year old standing at the top of a giant, enclosed and curly water slide out of some kids super water playground.

Clinging to the bars, watching the bigger, more experienced kids throw themselves into the unknown - its mesmerizing and terrifying. You know there will be moments where you slide too high and land on your ass, you know there will be dips and turns, you know you don't know whats coming - whats around the next bend.

But you know that if you don't just leap, you will never know what happens and where you end up. And by the time you're half way down you'll probably get the hang of not knowing and just go with the ride. Let go of control, of expectation and live moment to moment - and try not to choke on the water or come out bleeding.

I am still coming around the first bend, a few emotional bumps and scratches but holding on for the calm to come. Winding down, winding down. I didn't realise I was so tense!

And let's face it, there's no better place to be than where I am, right ...now.